Showing posts with label Mondays. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Mondays. Show all posts

Monday, 6 June 2016

Monday Moanings - June 6. 2016

Overload!

Shibuya Crossing, Tokyo

Waking up was a bit slow at the top of this week. Moving my legs to walk felt more like pushing tree stumps. Twenty minutes and a cappuccino later and my world swirled into a maelstrom of things I ought to do, want to do, and could do along with a few neon flashing deadlines.

Back streets of Shibuya, Tokyo











Even this blog fell victim to the fray. I'd sit down to write a few words, then stop while a trainload of useless imperatives chugged through my brain. I'd regain my focus enough to produce a few more words, or even a complete sentence only to be interrupted by an 18-wheeler hauling a load of mixed aggregate - choices, essentials, wishes and due dates, decisions and realities.
Forward motion mired in cement.















Though this all may sound terribly depressing, I assure it is not; frustrating yes.
But life's like that - some days are just exasperating from start to finish.


So be it.
Tomorrow is another day.




©2016 April Hoeller

Monday, 14 September 2015

Monday Moanings - September 14, 2015

The day began badly...

A steaming cappuccino to my left, I began my day with a leisurely scroll through my Facebook® news feed. The second drag of the mouse wheel brought me to this little pearl of wisdom:

One day, you'll just be a memory to some people.
Do your best to be a good one.

How lovely - NOT! I got blindsided by the first statement. It dropped me into a bucket of dreck where I spun and sputtered and sprawled for much too long. You know, that "one day" is not as far away as it used to be!


A life review movie flashed across my mind in an uniquely unimpressive trailer that lasted all of 2 seconds. Panic wicked up the hairs on my neck - omg I'd better get out there and do something spectacular, sensational, significant; something memorable and above all good because time is running short and I haven't done anything meaningful ... not a single indelible accomplishment to my credit in all my 60+ years of life...







My gut curdled. My morning soured. I shrank from the day. I shrank from life. Oh woe is me!




Bur remember that steaming cappuccino? It was still there. Still hot. Still fragrant. Still fresh from my Love's hand. I took the warm cup in my hands, turned from my desk and headed out into the dappled sunshine of the deck. The cool morning raised a few goosebumps on my arms, but the air was fresh and clean and so wonderfully restorative. Perspective flowed back into my soul. Gratitude overcame self-doubt. Sunshine blasted away the darkness. And caffeine evicted the doldrums.




And outside my door, the day really looks like this:






And of course, my life is not a wasteland.
I cannot orchestrate what others will remember of my life on some distant day.
I can and will, do my best with each day I'm given.



©2015 April Hoeller


Monday, 14 July 2014

Monday Moanings - July 14, 2014

Out of the Craft Closet and into the Whirlwind

Yesterday I had great ambitions for today, Yesterday I surfaced from a solid two weeks of immersion in arts and crafts. I'm not really a craft lady. I don't like fiddly, fancy bits and bobs. I don't tolerate the finicky stuff very well, but sometimes I do manage to rise to the occasion. The occasion was our daughter's graduation from university AND her engagement. The arts and crafts project that presented itself was to produce, finally!, her Baby Book. Our first-born has two, but when one became two, my time and energy was pretty much consumed just trying to keep one step, oh heck even half a step, ahead of them. Any craft projects involved popsicle sticks, foam shapes, googly eyes, white glue and cotton balls, but no photo book of memories and milestones. I did turn out a few rather nicely done birthday cakes back in the day; something I discovered as I trolled through the box of photos and hundreds of 35mm slide images.



By my estimate this Baby Book project took over 100 hours of scanning (all photos were from the pre-digital era), printing, cutting and pasting using all the contemporary scrapbooking techniques - rounded corners, wavy cuts, stickers and more! I have to admit that it was fun. I bubbled with satisfaction as each page was completed. I even dared to venture beyond my comfort zone to mount a few labels, just a few mind you, on the diagonal! Can you imagine?! Better yet, I got the job done on time for the celebration dinner Saturday evening.

Two weeks of total confinement in the closet of glue sticks, paper trimmers, rulers and memories ended. I was eager to return to what passes for regularly scheduled programming here - the gym, strawberry jam making, routine grocery shopping - as opposed to the 6pm panic question, "OMG what are we going to have for supper?"; and yard maintenance - it sure doesn't take long for the garden to go out of control! Yesterday I made out my To Do list for the week ahead and settled down for the night.

This morning greeted me with a notice from my 'Go To' strawberry farm. The berries were done for the season. How can that be? It's only ... omg it's the middle of July already. Of course the strawberries are gone. Aw shucks! At least there are still raspberries, currants and maybe even some Saskatoons to pick and preserve. They will have to do.


Somewhat cheered and wearing my 'Woman on a mission' face I headed into town. It seems that during my time in the craft cave, roadworks had sprung up all over my route. A drive that should only take 15 minutes, took 25. I was seeing orange - orange pylons, orange warning signs, orange vested workers. By the time I got to the gym I was ready for a heart pounding workout.

Forty-five minutes later, sweaty and triumphant, I bounded down the stairs and out to my car. Shopping centre, here I come! It's too bad that I had left the list at home - a crisp white square of paper filled with a lovely round script rendered by my own hand in an exercise designed to soothe my strawberry robbed soul. It had worked at the time, but now as I sat in my car with the taste of sweat salt on my lips, frustration and despair worked their way to supremacy.

I eased the car along Main Street, catching every single red light along the way to the grocery store. Once there, I wrestled not only with my mind to try to recall the items on my list but also with a demon possessed cart. You know the kind - the ones in which the four wheels do not spin in the same direction at the same time, or one of them does not spin at all. Brute force of will and body got me through and home again with only one thing missed from the list.

Some days are just like that. Some days I just have to push through, and though such times are part and parcel of 'normal', today it just wasn't what I had planned. Some writing, some tea and some time will ease me out of this Monday Moaning.

"After all tomorrow is another day."
(the character Katie Scarlett O'Hara, in  the movie Gone with the Wind)



©2014 April Hoeller